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Hi, everyone! I've had anorexia for the past ~3 years. The lowest I've been was 169, but I'm usually around 195 lbs. Just last week, I was 201 lbs (my highest weight ever). Even at that weight, though, I'm tall and big-boned, so I'm still pretty skinny. Today, I am probably 190 lbs (maybe lower). I've tried every strategy in the book, but none of them have worked until now. Basically, I get up every morning at 6:40 am. I leave the house by 7. I ride my bike 2 miles to my local park. Then, I run the trails for 5 miles. I then ride the 2 miles back home and arrive back somewhere around 9 am. After that, I eat breakfast (I never eat before I run). I usually just eat whatever I'm in the mood for. One day, I ate 1/2 cup of oatmeal with banana and apple slices. That was a huge breakfast, so it filled me up all the way until dinner. The next morning, I ate steamed broccoli with nothing on it. This morning, I ate 1 banana and a few pieces of watermelon.
A huge part of my weight loss is my diet. For the past few months, I've been banning foods. Ramen Noodles used to be my favorite thing to eat, now it's been months since I've eaten one. What I do is pick a food that I love eating that's really bad, then I try as hard as I can to not eat it for the next week or 2. After I feel like I've mastered not eating it, I pick another food and do the same thing. Now, I've stopped eating so many foods that I'm stuck to only healthy foods. Some things that I might eat are apples, carrots, bananas, oatmeal, watermelon, cantaloupe, broccoli, greek yogurt, fat-free jello, juice pouches, almond milk, and some other foods. I don't eat many other foods outside of that list, though. My strategy for not overeating is to just eat whenever I feel hungry. I know that sounds crazy but hear me out. If I don't eat when I'm hungry, I end up binge eating. To keep myself from overeating, I ONLY eat when I'm actually hungry. I never eat just because I have a craving for something. I only have cravings for healthy foods now, but when I do, I just plan to eat it for the next meal. Not only does healthy food really fill me up, but I think my stomach has shrunk, too. I now naturally eat less than 500 calories a day. I don't even have to try or anything. Just eat when you're hungry, don't eat when you're not. It's as simple as that. I don't count calories. I don't purge. I usually only eat breakfast and dinner (because I always eat something for breakfast that will fill me up for the entire day). For dinner, I eat small. Yesterday, for example, I just ate watermelon.
In the afternoons, I might run or take another bike ride, but usually, I don't. I'm always so tired and sore that I don't feel like doing it. I usually take a nap before my first workout. This makes it hard to sleep at night, but whatever. I hope to find some new friends here. Thanks for reading!